last week for ben

Thursday, March 16, 2006 drink it from the tap like it was my job Current mood: other sounds cool why don't most of us drink enough water in a day? what is our problem? we know that it is good, we know that it is bad news not to. do we think we're getting away with something? why is my mouth dry in the middle of the night and my lips chapped and i don't change? such is with jesus. so many of us just don't want to get hydrated. the people that do are all throwing water at you and saying "drink or die!" and we hate them so we don't drink to spite them. (i'll show them. i won't drink). "water sucks, gatorade is better" or something. i'm ready to take a bath in it and get on an iv and drink from the tap like it was my job. In the bush, a thrush, Come on outside, kids, and look, Life is happening. Currently listening: Afreaka! By Demon Fuzz Release date: By 25 October, 2005 3:35 PM - 3 Comments - 4 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove

Wednesday, March 15, 2006 trying to all my mind to be quieted Current mood: optimistic i have been pretty wound up lately. i just read an article by philip yancey in the back of a christian magazine about watching elk and how that helped him realize that so often when we are praying, we are waiting for God to do some miracle or to speak in a loud voice (this is all my paraphrase) but slowly God changes us...clears our heads, we allow our minds to quiet down. we can learn from elk who stand there, bend down to eat grass, stand there, bend down to eat grass...for a couple of hours. we can be that present in who we are and what we're doing. me and martha are going to lancaster for a couple days (not to equate my rural people to elk) but i hope the change of pace and loads of chill time can help us both to quiet down and listen to God. she and i are both big-time doers in our life right now. that's all good and all, but there is a deeper place that God is calling us to (not that we should stop doing, but that we need to "be" as well). after a cool cell meeting i got together with JMD and olshefski for a little metal shredding. jon played guitar, justin sang, and i drummed. it was really fun. i'm not a metal drummer (i have the blisters on my hands to prove it). if nothing else it was a great workout (felt the burn). Hit the ground running, It's the story of my life, I will learn to wait. Currently listening: Lifesblood By Mastodon Release date: By 06 August, 2002 10:24 AM - 6 Comments - 6 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove

Tuesday, March 14, 2006 save my bones for davey jones Current mood: calm a close friend of mine was telling me about how they were getting super stressed out at work and instead of having a meltdown he stopped and wrote a haiku. it was good. bless my soul. it is good. i wish In Living Color was still on. Seeds fall on the path, I smell birds coming, The writing is on the wall, Do bother to look. Currently listening: Bee Thousand By Guided by Voices Release date: By 20 June, 1994 12:14 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove

Monday, March 13, 2006 great morning Current mood: happy i feel good today. real good. i had that moment this morning, when lily woke up early, to either 1. beg martha to get her (because i was early man yesterday) 2. get up and get her myself or 3. see if martha wanted to get up togetether. we both got up and had a really nice breakfast (of course once somebody walked down the hall helena woke up) all together. helena, now that she's 5, wanted me to ask her questions this morning to see if she had gotten any smarter after her birthday. she did. Sober mindedness, Calmly drifting down, Into arms of warm darkness, First person outside. Currently listening: Tical 2000 : Judgement Day By Method Man Release date: By 17 November, 1998 10:38 AM - 2 Comments - 2 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove

Sunday, March 12, 2006 lily day, lily thoughts Current mood: chipper me and lily today. we google image search babies and kitties together pretty often. so much that i have to mix up the words that we're searching for ,so today was cute babies, and this strange photo came up. it's good to just play stupid games with this kid...there's a lot to having fun together. she is in a yogurt phase right now (gon-gah). we watched rize together. i asked if she liked the dancing and she said yes. Nothin' like babies, Their laughing, Can strip my anxiety, I can laugh with them. Currently watching: Rize Release date: By 25 October, 2005 11:20 AM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove

Saturday, March 11, 2006 to the zoo... Current mood: calm tomorrow is helena's b'day so me and martha took her, lily, and uriah to the zoo. it was awesome. the morning started out so great. helena got to eat the cereal of her choice (fasnacht b'day tradition)-lucky charms. we pile into the car and realize that it is dead. the parking lights were left on all night, killing the battery. so jason shot over to drop uriah and gave us a jump. after about 4 hrs we'd had enough, and while leaving, martha exclaimed (because of the 5,000 stroller toting, oakley blades-wearing parents) "man, this place is a zoo." right she was. it made me wonder...are the animals on display for us to observe how weird they look (like the naked mole rat) or are we brought in so that normal animals can see how freaky we've become? Two lazy eagles, Caged since birth, They, the symbol of freedom... Are we listening? Currently reading: That Hideous Strength (Space Trilogy (Paperback)) By C.S. Lewis Release date: By 06 May, 2003 2:51 PM - 5 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove